Mini-me started Pre-K. I was so excited when I got the call saying the school had an opening that all I could do was squee and giggle. Then, after we dropped her off the first morning and I saw her sitting there with the other kids, I had a realization. I realized that she really has become her own person and she won't always want me around. She will have her own experiences and I won't be involved in them. It is the start of something new. And while I knew it would happen, I don't think I really understood. So as we sat at breakfast afterwards, just hubby and I, I burst into tears. I couldn't help it or stop it. He was laughing at me and I was laughing at myself but in my head the only thing I kept thinking was "she really is growing up."
It took me a few days to wrap my head around it but I've done that now and I'm so very excited for her. There is a bit inside that is sad for me, but it cannot overcome the excitement. She has the world at her fingers and the chance to become whatever she wants. I can only hope that she will show intelligence and thought when she makes her choices.
She is showing that she is a rather... physical.. little person. She has now hit another kid, threw a block at one, tried to push one out of a chair and then bit the same kid because she wasn't able to extricate him from said chair. These were all done because she couldn't get what she wanted, which was whatever toy the other child was playing with. We sat her down after each incident (two different occasions now) and explained to her that such behavior won't be tolerated. I understand this kind of behavior is expected, particularly from one that has been an only child and has not had to deal with other kids on such a regular basis. I am hoping that it clears up quickly and she begins to not react this way. It will be a work in progress for a while, I think. LOL
At home, she has shown behaviors that are showing me she is uncertain about herself because of this rather large daily change. She has been asking to be carried, saying she doesn't know how to do things that we know perfectly well she does, and being clingy. So today I'm spending time with her above all else. This morning she snuggled in my lap until time for snack/lunch and after her nap, I will read her stories from "The Great Encyclopedia of Faeries." I'll probably paint her toenails and go out to get her something she likes for dinner. I don't often get to have days like this. They are very special and I hope that she remembers them for a long time to come.
