I know I posted in my previous blog that my domly dentist advised that my TMD is under control. I've also started going to physical therapy (hereby known as PT) for my neck and shoulders because the TMD has seriously screwed up my musculature in my upper areas (which has affected lower regions as well). The PT started really working on trying to relax my SCM muscles this week. These are two muscles on either side of your neck that can cause headaches, jaw pain, ear aches and all kinds of fun stuff.
The PT concentrated a good bit on my SCM muscles on Friday. Today I've found myself having a bad headache and the last 2-3 days my ear has really bothered me. The ear problem I've had for a while (along with everything else). This particular problem is very annoying. It feels like my ear is stopped up with a significant amount of humming. When it gets really bad, I can get vertigo bad enough that I can't get up and move around for fear of getting sick. While getting sick hasn't ever happened with the kind of vertigo I get, it's still a big fear of mine. Me and nausea do NOT get along well.
I have a feeling that a large part of my headache is coming from the way I'm sitting. Well, not really the WAY I'm sitting so much as WHERE I'm sitting. My couch is one of those L-shape sectionals and my favorite part (the end beside the end table) is situated so that when I do sit there, I have to turn my head right to look at the TV. The PT has advised that how I'm working with my laptop is fine and shouldn't cause many problems since I am paying attention to how I sit/type/etc.. with it. I've noticed before when I sit on this part of the couch, my left shoulder will start hurting, if I'm watching TV. I guess that means it's time to change spots and sit on the other part of the couch.
Maybe I can convince someone to put a lamp on the wall for me close to my other spot so that I can do my stitching and other things (such as school work when that starts up again) over there instead of in my corner. Oh and convince someone for shoulder/back massages. That would be nice too. LOL
June 26, 2011
June 23, 2011
Birthday surprises and other updates
As most people know, my birthday was yesterday. Everyone also knows I've been freaking out about it because this year I turned 30. Logically I understand it's not a big deal. Emotionally.. not so much. There has been nothing logical to this freaking out. I wanted this birthday to be celebrated special, something to be remembered. Thanks to some very special friends, this birthday will be remembered for a long time. The day after, I don't feel like I should be 30. I think I am probably still getting used to the idea.
On other notes, I also went to the domly dentist yesterday. He said that we have my TMD under control (YAY!) and now it's on to trying to fix the problem with my "Sternocleidomastoid Muscles" which have been causing my headaches and the numbness in my hands. Oh and they're also probably the reason behind my vertigo. Weeee! So I'll be continuing with my physical therapy and have to go back to my dentist in about three weeks.
And in regards to schooling, I'm currently on track to graduate in April. I thought maybe that I could swing it so that I could graduate at the end of the year, but I forgot about one extra class I need to take. So April it is. That means that next NEEHU will be a celebration of me graduating. Teeheehee. After that, I plan on moving on to get my BA. I want to be a CPA when I get all growed up. N'shtuff. My ultimate goal (as far as the schooling and CPA subject goes) is to be able to graduate with with my BA and then take the CPA exam pretty close to if not right after I graduate. What does my schooling goals mean for my job status? I've been working on my resume and it's about time to start looking for a job with an accounting firm. The most daunting part about this is that I have no idea what I'm doing. The scariest part is that I have no accounting experience because when I was looking for jobs in the past, no one would hire me in that position because I didn't have a degree and didn't have experience. It's very frustrating to be in that situation.
And so I begin trying to figure out how to get my foot into the door. It's going to take work and time. And a helluva lot of luck.
On other notes, I also went to the domly dentist yesterday. He said that we have my TMD under control (YAY!) and now it's on to trying to fix the problem with my "Sternocleidomastoid Muscles" which have been causing my headaches and the numbness in my hands. Oh and they're also probably the reason behind my vertigo. Weeee! So I'll be continuing with my physical therapy and have to go back to my dentist in about three weeks.
And in regards to schooling, I'm currently on track to graduate in April. I thought maybe that I could swing it so that I could graduate at the end of the year, but I forgot about one extra class I need to take. So April it is. That means that next NEEHU will be a celebration of me graduating. Teeheehee. After that, I plan on moving on to get my BA. I want to be a CPA when I get all growed up. N'shtuff. My ultimate goal (as far as the schooling and CPA subject goes) is to be able to graduate with with my BA and then take the CPA exam pretty close to if not right after I graduate. What does my schooling goals mean for my job status? I've been working on my resume and it's about time to start looking for a job with an accounting firm. The most daunting part about this is that I have no idea what I'm doing. The scariest part is that I have no accounting experience because when I was looking for jobs in the past, no one would hire me in that position because I didn't have a degree and didn't have experience. It's very frustrating to be in that situation.
And so I begin trying to figure out how to get my foot into the door. It's going to take work and time. And a helluva lot of luck.
June 12, 2011
A Night for Pleasure
The phone rings. I pick up and your voice instantly wraps itself around my mind, taking my will as gently as a feather falling through the air. My voice becomes soft and breathy with my accent becoming thicker as my mind is dissuaded from paying attention to how my words sound. Your words take me deeper and deeper, furthering my submission. There is nothing but your voice. Your words. The energy spoken transfers to a mind made pliable with need.
No longer do I see the flicker of the candle light against the wall. No longer do I see the curtains of the canopy above my bed as my body sways and moves at your direction. The bed softens beneath me as I lay on it, unable to stand any longer. My hands move of your accord and my legs spread, everything open to be viewed if one so desired. The room is thick with the scent of my desire and ne'er could I hide it even if I wanted to. The signs show slickly along my thighs.
I start to hear your voice in stereo, unable to comprehend the meaning of this and it only takes me deeper, ever deeper. Eyes closed, I hear you continue speaking and I begin to hear another voice whisper in my ear in addition to yours. Hands limp, I no longer realize the phone is not in my possession as the voices intermingle and take me beyond any point I have ever been. Through the haze I feel the blindfold being placed on and hear the jingle of the cuffs. There is no resistance to either of you as you do with me what you will.
Even more helpless than before, one voice in each ear spurs my whimpers and moans into outright thrashing. My skin tingles and my breathing is shallow with the need and desire pounding through my chest. Mouths take hold and hands run along edges, teasing and tantalizing, taking it ever higher. There is only pleasure. Insurmountable pleasure as I am taken as you see fit. Your desires are my will and my obedience is pleasure. There is no hesitation. There are no thoughts. There is only you. All else does not matter at this time.
Pleasure is taken and pleasure is given until all beasts have been sated and as we lie there afterwards, your voices bring me slowly back. Touches shared and consciousness slowly attained, I'm unable to keep quiet that I think I may indeed have opened the door to a trouble I am all too happy to accept. It is an evening that will be long remembered. Well, mostly anyway. ;)
No longer do I see the flicker of the candle light against the wall. No longer do I see the curtains of the canopy above my bed as my body sways and moves at your direction. The bed softens beneath me as I lay on it, unable to stand any longer. My hands move of your accord and my legs spread, everything open to be viewed if one so desired. The room is thick with the scent of my desire and ne'er could I hide it even if I wanted to. The signs show slickly along my thighs.
I start to hear your voice in stereo, unable to comprehend the meaning of this and it only takes me deeper, ever deeper. Eyes closed, I hear you continue speaking and I begin to hear another voice whisper in my ear in addition to yours. Hands limp, I no longer realize the phone is not in my possession as the voices intermingle and take me beyond any point I have ever been. Through the haze I feel the blindfold being placed on and hear the jingle of the cuffs. There is no resistance to either of you as you do with me what you will.
Even more helpless than before, one voice in each ear spurs my whimpers and moans into outright thrashing. My skin tingles and my breathing is shallow with the need and desire pounding through my chest. Mouths take hold and hands run along edges, teasing and tantalizing, taking it ever higher. There is only pleasure. Insurmountable pleasure as I am taken as you see fit. Your desires are my will and my obedience is pleasure. There is no hesitation. There are no thoughts. There is only you. All else does not matter at this time.
Pleasure is taken and pleasure is given until all beasts have been sated and as we lie there afterwards, your voices bring me slowly back. Touches shared and consciousness slowly attained, I'm unable to keep quiet that I think I may indeed have opened the door to a trouble I am all too happy to accept. It is an evening that will be long remembered. Well, mostly anyway. ;)
June 10, 2011
I've been thinking too much again...
Left to my own devices with words twisting and turning their way through my brain, my thoughts turn to murmurs made on quiet evenings. It turns to thoughts of aching tenderness and madly passionate kisses. Quietly controlled force that burns with the fiery intensity it contains. The need within overwhelms all logic, draws the primal to the fore and all movements become instinctual.
And yet I have no words for the desires that lie within. Things that can be drawn out with the right touch, or the right word, the right tone of voice, or even just the right look in my direction. A shiver down the spine created. That zing between the thighs. A catch of the breath. Signs only caught by the most observant to create a story so vivid it captures the senses and dissuades time from being reality.
I've been thinking too much again.
And yet I have no words for the desires that lie within. Things that can be drawn out with the right touch, or the right word, the right tone of voice, or even just the right look in my direction. A shiver down the spine created. That zing between the thighs. A catch of the breath. Signs only caught by the most observant to create a story so vivid it captures the senses and dissuades time from being reality.
I've been thinking too much again.
June 4, 2011
Goals and the Unknown
I've almost finished up my class for this quarter. I just have my essay left to finish which I will be working on later this evening. As this quarter finishes up, I find myself looking towards the future. My goal when I started to school was that once I get close to having around 3 years left to get my BA, I wanted to find a job with a CPA firm to go ahead and get my experience in so that I can go for my CPA exam very close to if not just after graduating with my BA. I still maintain this goal.
If I had not taken two years off to have my daughter, I would be very close to being on track. I am not unhappy about taking the time off, just as I'll have to take time off for the next one if/when it decides to make it's appearance. As it stands, I have approximately 3 terms left before I will graduate with my Associates. That means by this time next year, I will be looking into which school I want to transfer my credits two. I have two schools in mind and it's just a matter of which one fits my life better at that time. In the meantime, I believe it is getting very close to time for me to make that decision to step out of the known and start sticking my toes into the ocean of the unknown.
This is going to be very difficult for me as I cannot afford to take much of a pay cut from what I'm making now. There's also the current economy to consider as well. I plan on taking my time as I do have a job (providing nothing goes wrong with it of course) and as such, I can afford to be picky. My biggest obstacle is that I don't even have the beginning knowledge on how to get a job within a CPA firm. I mean do you just call them and ask if they're hiring? Are there online job markets that feature jobs with CPA firms? This this point, honestly, I'd settle for an accounting position for a private company even. Just so I could have some experience under my belt.
Another obstacle I have to face is that I will only have my Associates. Even so, I will have a lot of the same skill set of the people going for their BA. This is because my school is geared towards giving their students the skills necessary to make it in the business world. So how does one show that even with an Associates, they can do the same job as someone with a BA? How do I sell myself? This is not something I'm very good at, even though I know I can do a good job. When I started with the company I'm at now, I was told by one of my superiors that the only reason they hired me was because I could start immediately. That won't be the case this time around (knocking on wood about this one). I owe my company a two week notice.
And now for a little bit of shameless begging. So if anyone knows someone that can help me revamp my resume and/or can help me learn what I need to do to get the job I really really feel I should be doing, that I feel so very deeply is where I need to be, I would not wave away the help.
If I had not taken two years off to have my daughter, I would be very close to being on track. I am not unhappy about taking the time off, just as I'll have to take time off for the next one if/when it decides to make it's appearance. As it stands, I have approximately 3 terms left before I will graduate with my Associates. That means by this time next year, I will be looking into which school I want to transfer my credits two. I have two schools in mind and it's just a matter of which one fits my life better at that time. In the meantime, I believe it is getting very close to time for me to make that decision to step out of the known and start sticking my toes into the ocean of the unknown.
This is going to be very difficult for me as I cannot afford to take much of a pay cut from what I'm making now. There's also the current economy to consider as well. I plan on taking my time as I do have a job (providing nothing goes wrong with it of course) and as such, I can afford to be picky. My biggest obstacle is that I don't even have the beginning knowledge on how to get a job within a CPA firm. I mean do you just call them and ask if they're hiring? Are there online job markets that feature jobs with CPA firms? This this point, honestly, I'd settle for an accounting position for a private company even. Just so I could have some experience under my belt.
Another obstacle I have to face is that I will only have my Associates. Even so, I will have a lot of the same skill set of the people going for their BA. This is because my school is geared towards giving their students the skills necessary to make it in the business world. So how does one show that even with an Associates, they can do the same job as someone with a BA? How do I sell myself? This is not something I'm very good at, even though I know I can do a good job. When I started with the company I'm at now, I was told by one of my superiors that the only reason they hired me was because I could start immediately. That won't be the case this time around (knocking on wood about this one). I owe my company a two week notice.
And now for a little bit of shameless begging. So if anyone knows someone that can help me revamp my resume and/or can help me learn what I need to do to get the job I really really feel I should be doing, that I feel so very deeply is where I need to be, I would not wave away the help.
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