Post NEEHU Processing

Wow, what a weekend! Where do I even begin?? Well, I guess the answer to that (as some of my snarky friends would say) is at the beginning. So, here goes. (Fair warning to those about to read, this may turn out to be TLDR. I make no promises that it won't.)

I went into this trip not knowing at all what to expect. I was both excited and nervous because I was entering new territory. I've been going to BDSM stuff and conventions for a long time but hypnosis is still a relatively new realm for me and what I have done has been in private. I had heard from people about last NEEHU and I was really happy to be able to be a part of this one and learn new and interesting things. Not to mention have new experiences and make new friends.

So, I started out by getting up at the gawd (Why, yes! I am from the South. How did you guess?) awful way too early 3:15am to start getting ready for my plane that took off at 6:30am. Then I had a layover in Philly (first connecting flight I've ever flown on, but then again, I've only flown all of about 4 times in my life). With just enough time to get to the other gate, I didn't get to eat lunch. This in turn caused me to be very anxious and hungry when I landed. Food was had though and everything was made better by snuggles once I got to the hotel room. Which is the now infamous suite 611. *giggles*

The fun times began a bit later when we all shuttled our ways over to The Society where NEEHU2 was being held. My first impression was that I was amused by the fact that the only clue the place was there was finding the door. Walking in, I found the staff very warming and welcome with the play spaces within being adequately stocked and spacious. Of course, I was being me when I sat down at a table with some of the scrumptious food and someone walked up and said "I am..." and of course I had to interrupt with "cute?" I think I even shocked a couple of people at my table by doing that. The hypnosis show was immensely entertaining. I was actually terrified that I'd be one of the ones called up to participate. And while I'm glad I didn't participate in the main part of the show, I'm also glad that the guest of honor for the conference did pick me for the instant induction part. It was quick but very effective. The first new hypnosis experience of the weekend, with the way it was done. I was so very nervous. *giggles* That's why everyone saw me sitting with my head down and my hands placed firmly in my lap. I thought I might have a panic attack or pass out if I looked up and saw everyone watching me. Which is even funnier when you consider that I am a sexual exhibitionist.

I was very astounded at how friendly everyone was towards me that had never even met me before. And so much flirting! Holy crap! My brain is still trying to bend itself around the concept that so many others find me attractive. I'm trying to do this chronologically but somehow I don't think that's going to happen very well. there are certain things that I know for a fact happened at certain times, but then there are other things that are quite a bit hazy in the time frame area. Gee, I can't imagine why that would be... And the food! OMG The food was just fantastic. The kitchen volunteers and organizers deserve a round of applause and praises so loud that the very gods in their realms can hear it. (Nah, I don't love food at all... >.>)

And the hypnosis slam afterwards was just so much fun. I really enjoyed watching all the tists up there having fun with various subjects and implementing the most odd of focal objects. I think many people can agree that the plunger will "stick" in everyone's minds for a long time. ;) Oh! And I finally know about the tantric carrot! :-D The atmosphere was just so vibrant and wonderful. It was truly amazing.

We got back to the room relatively early since everything started at 9am the following morning. And yes, I am referencing the schedule as I write this because otherwise, there's no way I'd even be able to keep track of everything half as well as I'm doing so far. The first class of the morning was Hypnosis 101: Intro (About freaking time too that it is one of the first classes held instead of at the end.. silly people at non-hypnosis conventions). Which I of course attend every time. It's never the same, even though it does contain a lot of the same information each time, and I always enjoy it.

After that was the dual inductions class which was a blast. I almost got up to participate in that one but I got nervous (again). After the first demo with the presenters doing the dual induction, I started to raise my hand but then other tists got up to participate and my courage faltered to about -35 degrees Celsius. What? I never claimed to be courageous. LOL I was asked afterwards why I didn't and I told the person I didn't want to be seen as narcissistic. Which is also true. I didn't want to be seen like I was trying to take the spotlight from others that wanted to get up there. Hello! New girl wants all the attention! Must have ATTENTION!!! Not.

Then after that was another 101 track class that I sat in the first row for. And that was a fun class. The presenter said he may have been picking on the front row, but somehow I didn't mind. He used me as a bit of a demo for a kinesthetic induction. It's the one where you move the fingers up and down the arm in varying rhythmic patterns while you're talking to the subject. It actually took me a good 30 secs or so after he'd said that my arm would stay in place and not move before I realized he'd said it. In some ways, I feel like this is a major accomplishment because of the "problems" I've had with hypnosis in the past. It may not seem like much to those experienced in the subject, but sometimes the small things are really the biggest achievements. That happening caused me to open up a bit and be a bit more social too, I think. So thank you for that. *smiles softly*

After that was the Femdom class, which was very interesting as well. I even spoke up a bit in that one. Sometimes it just takes a little bit of time for me to warm up to people and then the mouth opens and won't stop... Well at least until a) something is shoved into it or b) my brain is turned to mush. Both of which are very acceptable means of being quieted. *giggles*

Then I attended the "Negotiating a Scene" class which serves as a good reminder for things I may have forgotten but really shouldn't have. The presenter was awesome and the group participation was even better. I'm sure the fact that lots of people were snuggled up together didn't hurt anything. ;) After that, I went to the "So.. What Can You DO With Hypnosis" class. It was very interesting to hear the different things that people like to do with it. Unfortunately I started getting a severe headache during this and right at the end went to lay down in the front lounge because it was quite and there was a comfy couch in there. And that's also where I made the discovery of "induction by hypnotits". Someone was brought in to give me some medicine (for which I am so very thankful). She asked me to sit up with my head on her chest so that she could help ease out some of the tension that had built up in my shoulders/neck and caused the headache. When she asked me if she could maybe trance me just a bit to also helped, my response was something like, "I have bewbies in my face. You can do whatever you want." Have I mentioned I like bewbies? They're soft and nommable and oh so wonderful. Ahem.. getting back on track now...

So, the medicine helped and pretty soon I was back up and moving around again, in time to join the Hypnosis Games class (I keep wanting to call them panels, silly Dragon*Con influence). I did participate in this one. I was seated and then dropped. The tist told me that my brain would cause something to happen that everyone there would enjoy when he clapped his hands. I knew what would happen if my brain had any say in the matter but I was also scared that nothing would. So then he brought me back up and started talking again. Right in the middle of the sentence, he clapped his hands, and yes, indeedy do, something surely happened. I orgasmed in front of everyone. Totally expected but unexpected at the same time and I'm fairly certain my entire face was very red too. And yes, I did enjoy it. It wasn't one of my hardest orgasms or loudest, but it was still yummy. I also think I surprised quite a few people because I had people watching me all the way back to my chair. *giggles* (now THAT'S the exhibitionist in me talking ;) )

Once that was done, we headed back to the hotel to prepare for the ceremony and I actually got to wear the slinky black dress I'd bought at a thrift store that feels FANTASTIC on my skin. Getting back to NEEHU, I started getting nervous because I had no idea what the ceremony to join M'Lady's family would consist of. I'm also fairly certain I didn't answer everything right but what came out was the first thing that popped into my head. I was so nervous of doing something wrong things popping straight from my brain to my mouth occurs when that happens. I think my palms were actually sweaty at one point. But the ceremony turned out to be absolutely energizing and I am so very thankful for everyone that turned out and for the hugs afterwards.

Then came a bit of playtime with a new friend that somehow ended up with me being naked. And, as anyone who knows me well knows will happen, once the clothes are off, they pretty much stay off for the rest of the evening. And they did. Curling up on the floor with my head in a comfy lap watching others play, some getting tied up, others getting swatted. Various activities happening at once makes for a very happy twinklie. Then the guy I called cute was informed that I'd like to play with him and the next thing I know, I'm dancing in the middle of the play space with a cute guy that had sparkly, lit up butterflies all over him and that's when things get a bit hazy. I know there was a cute girl wearing green that I started kissing and the next thing I know I've got the hand of another girl in mine and cutie in the other hand and then butterflies were draped across us and things got hazy again. Mmmm... snuggles and kisses. *happysighs*

Then more snuggles with cute guy before I was finally brought back to the group. I ended up after an unknown length of time sitting on a chair falling asleep. I have no idea how long I was sitting there but I do recall that I nearly fell out of it several times. Finally I was sent back to the hotel for sleepage. And sleep I did. I don't remember anyone else coming back or to bed or anything. LOL

Sunday morning wasn't quite so hurried since things didn't start until 10am and actually started just a bit later than that. I joined in on the light and sound machines (another new experience. YAY!) and now believe I'd like to get one for myself at some point. Damned corrupting influences of hypnosis people. *giggles* After that was something else, but I can't remember what exactly. (Like you didn't expect me to say that about something??) Some of the classes were posted last minute. I think it's fantastic that people were able to do that too because it made things seem.. I dunno... somehow even better.

And then there was the kinesthetic induction class. By this point, I had become pretty much attention overloaded. My upload bandwidth limit had been exceeded. And I was still not quite comfy with everyone so my own shyness overcame me and I ended up not participating. The presenter did come over and check on me at one point. I must have looked like a little lost sheep sitting there all alone. I wanted to join in but.. I dunno. I just didn't know if I could handle the amount of touching necessary for this one at that point. But, after having watched the presenter interact with both his demo girls and the crowd, I thought that maybe if he was willing, I would like to try. My curiosity overcoming my shyness. *giggles* He did agree and so afterwards I was able to experience it and it was a wonderful experience. I even got another short unexpected trance with him a bit later, as everyone was packing up to leave.

And then there was the Dr. Who party back in the room after NEEHU had concluded and that was yet another first for me. I have to admit I would love to do something like that again. Everyone so comfortable with each other and all snuggled up in various spots. It was... nice.

I also can't forget to mention the many snuggles and hugs and kisses that I got from people. The back scritches I got and and head scritches I gave. There really isn't anything bad I can say about the weekend. It was so wonderful. I've never... been so accepted by such a large group of people. When I think about it even now, it's still overwhelming to me. I honestly don't believe I'd have thought that I could... fit in. And I really did feel like I fit in. No one turned a cold shoulder to me. No one excluded me. I really don't have the words to describe how thankful I am to absolutely everyone I interacted with. It's very difficult for me to think of myself as truly attractive, for reasons I'll not go into here because this is a happy blog entry. But the amount of kinship and warm energy I felt towards me was incredible.

To everyone that organized the unconference and those that helped in any way; to those that attended and lent me support in any form or fashion; to those that made a friendly gesture to me or did something they might not find a big deal, I thank you. You have no idea how much every little thing that was done means to me. I am so happy to be a part of the hypnosis community and I'll stop there because this entry is wayyyyy too long as it is.

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